She used to come at night and sit on side of my bed…I used to lie there…
We were friends and she knew…but somehow I imagined things are going a bit far with each coming night
I left a husband and two wonderful children, she used to say. I used to love him for he cared in the beginning
Before he took to drinking…and beating me wherever, whenever he could…
I was so surprised, how could anyone be so cruel, she was lovely looking and still young to have a big family
Wish I was rich…had a house, she went on…be a mistress of a family-now I could see she was getting drunk, for she
Never stopped drinking, her eyes so wet, like the vodka coming even through them…giving her such a lovely red hue to her face
I kept looking ahead only snapping a look at her now and then…I was really afraid things may go out of hand…
She looked tired and miserable; I missed the firing energy I used to see in her, all day long at work, till we come to our rooms at night.
She looked ahead with closed eyes like she was meditating…her mouth only opened with a long sigh
And in a low whispered voice she dragged a breath like it would not come, and looked at me in dreamy sleepy and
Drunken eyes…closed again. Wished you were made for me, she said, you will love my children, I just know
You will take care of me, I just know…she was talking like in sleep…wish you had me from the beginning
From day one when you came in…How I dreamed of you at nights…what a wonderful sight
Whenever I was afraid used to think of you and me in your arms…how it felt so secure
How it told me how it would be like if I was yours
Always dreamed of us though in shameless posture, though there was certain purity in what I see…the moment you stepped in this place, first it felt strange, i never saw such looks before
I know the eyes will look different as long as the mind thought and behaved and acted different
So I wondered what were you thinking that day…now I know you ve always been a scholar
How strong I always thought you to be, how safe I always thought of me whenever I was near to you…how you gave me confidence in me how you controlled all over my mind and heart
I know you never think about these things, traditions you say, but no I tell you, it’s you, so different
But could you come closer to me, it s a bit selfish to keep all that strength I feel in you just for you
I feel so afraid like I never felt…its time you feel little for me…i could give you all my life my security ,my shaking reputation and still would not waver ,i always counted on you
One thing first tell me how you gathered all that energy…i really (now she always gave a hysterical kind of looks, very strange) dont understand, and laughed strangely some more this time
A bit longer, i was even alarmed…looks to me there are people that dont belong to our world
I belong to this,mine, still I could take a peek at your world, mine is different, I never felt pure
But I tried,always a little shake from anyone and I take a bend and rid of all my clothes, it’s what all expect from me,strange ,i always copmly..
I always knew of my good looks ,and silly thoughts,i never was that bright ,but again I could take a peek at your puzzling world, wish you could take me in ,if just for a while..
Now she looked me straight in the eyes, she was so red in face, so lost in thoughts like miles away
But she looked so beautiful, like all women when, when are so vulnerable…
Just for the night, please take me. Take it all, wish I feel your warmth your strength, dreamy eyes
Got me mad…give me your body if just for one night…i will vow faith to you like a slave
Please don’t turn me out…it was lips that touched smooth and brushed, her face covered mine
All my vision, how she could get inside me and took control…she must have certain magic
I miscalculated herself, she was so kissing strong ,I let her for a while ,till I gave in ..Just for her
